why?- can someone help? plaese..?

I know what its like to be depressed, though it was on something that was totally different. People think I’m anorexic, they even ask while I’m eating! A few friends started commenting, and I began to think these were true, I nearly began to self harm, I attempted suicide twice, each time I failed thinking “I can’t even kill myself properly” It took me very little time to get over my depression, only a few months, I did it through talking, my first step was my friend yelled at me, telling me that she missed me, and why can’t the real me come back?! I spent the whole weekend crying, then stopped. I’m a changed person now, I still get commented on for the way I naturally am, and often cry for hours about it, but at the end of the day, I am who I am.

The best advice I can give you, is to talk to someone, I was councelled, that helped so much, but mostly I talked to my friends :) I’ve never felt better about myself, I hope that things turn better for you! Good luck, be strong, and smile, it might never happen! (corny phrase I know, but its what my friends told me!) Feel free to message me, I would be more than happy to help! x x x x

Depression is tough, especially when you come from an abusive household. I come from a similar background and to this day I get the occasional flashback as well. Though that may never go away, I’ve found that talking to people is a good way to vent feelings that will otherwise eat you up inside. Try one of the hotlines below to speak to a counselor who may be able to help you out.

Domestic Violence: 866-331-9474

Child Abuse: 800-422-4453

Self-Injury: 800-DONT-CUT

Rape (not sure if it applies to you, but just in case): 800-656-HOPE

Suicide: 800-SUICIDE

Many of these place are open 24 hours to help you with your problems. I strongly encourage you to contact them for free counseling so that some of those past events don’t continue to haunt you anymore.

Oh, and congratulations on getting better. It may feel like a lifelong battle, but I’m sure you have the strength to make it through everything. I wish you all the best.