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This is not a choice that I want to make. I want to marry this woman and I want to have a normal family life. I want another child, someday. I have wanted a family for as long as I can remember.

I just didn't expect this man to come along and steal away my heart.

My first time was with the woman I'm currently involved with. I can't even have sex with her, anymore. It disgusts me. I can't see her naked. I find it all completely revolting. I can hardly speak with her. She doesn't understand me and I find that most women don't.

I want to be with her, because if I were to want a woman, she would be the perfect one. Unfortunately, women are not what I want anymore.

Would it be completely wrong of me to keep stringing her along, even though I'm madly in love with someone else? How hard could it really be to hide my sexual orientation from her?

She's very religious and would probably force me into religious counselilng if I were to tell her. I can't go through that. I need this man in my life. I have never been truly in love, before. I had no idea that I could love someone this much. I just don't know how to keep the girlfriend along for the ride.