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So, summer has started and I'm all happy.. Or was. I barely passed and all. So no summer school. And I'm glad I get to be home by myself 2 days a week. But my mom is freaking out and turning into a btch. Because of an unknown reason, she's taking away my Internet, my phone, my TV, my ps2, my ipod, my friends ((basically)) and my mountain dew sometimes soon and I don't know what to do. She won't let me see my friends and is taking away my online friends. But then again my 'friends' from school ignored me, so they're not really friends. And now my mom threatens that she will send me to live with my dad because she can't deal with the 'sht' I'm giving her. And when she told me that today I didn't understand. If I have no one to talk to here, in Michigan, then I should at least talk to people online that actually like me. And I got picked on in school this year, but my mom didn't care and nor did anyone else so I put up with it. And my mom makes fun of my laugh and the way I stutter when I talk because I get nervous when talking sometimes. And she yells at me when I talk loud enough so she won't make fun of the way my voice sounds because she thinks I'm yelling at her. And my mom hates when I talk to her in public because she doesn't want to be embarrassed. And my mom also hates me because "I won't come to her for help." Well, no. I don't want her help. She's so cruel to me. And another reason why she hates me is because I "never help her with anything." Well okay I'm 12. Not 16. I will not say I'm a teen, because I know I'm a child and I'm trying to makes friends online.. And there she goes again.. Making fun of my laugh when I wasn't even laughing. She torments me constantly. She talks bad about to my dog and to her friends right in front of me. Then she puts food in my hair. I can't deal with her. Every time she says something mean I start crying now. I can't yell at her, I'll get in trouble. Same if I ignore her. She pulled out my head phones and took them and my ipod and gave them to my dog because she felt bad for her having to spend all day with my horrible retarded laugh. I can name very few people that I know don't hate me and I've found myself acting a bit more emo everyday. And I want to kill myself, but I won't. I'm looking forward to many things in the future that will hopefully happen. And along with the emo thing, I find myself thinking about death and blood and all that stuff more today. And I keep thinking that no one will ever love me and I'll end up dieing alone. I don't want to think that, but I always am. It used to be a joke to me, like "Why the hell am I thinking this? lol." But now I can't help but believe it. I would really like some help. so advice, anything. I also need something to actually make me want to live to the next day, what I said above isn't enough. I really don't see the point for me to continue living.. And I know I made a mistake someplace in this, or I left something out.. But just try to help..