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I'm addicted to punching stuff and yelling at people when pissed?

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Let's see...when I was 8, I threw a textbook across the classroom bc a pencil fell off my desk and rolled out of reach.

When I was 9, I threw a photo album across the room because of bad report card. It tore in two.

when I was 11, a friend got a 98 on a test and I only got an 83. I cursed her out and then had a screaming match with grandpa at the supermarket, where we were both kicked out.

When I was 14, I kicked a hole in the wall at high school because a friend didn't return my call.

When I was in 15, I punched the walls of my high school repeatedly because I thought my detention was unjust. All I did was talk to a friend in class. I also sassed McDonald's cashier for messing up my orders.

When I was 16, I got an 83% on a chem test, I confronted the teacher and demanded better grade.

When I was 17, a vending machine ate my money and I threw my shoe across my study hall classroom, hitting the ceiling lights. Suspended as always. I also cursed out a girl who got picked to play piano for church christmas concert simply because I didn't. I got kicked out of youth group.

Spring '08, I threw a 3 hour tantrum over online w-2 before calling the w-2 people. I also yelled obscenities in the coffeeshop because I couldn't reach my mom on her cell phone. On top of that, I cursed out plenty of friends/classmates. Threw a girl's purse across the classroom because it was in "my" seat. Got kicked out of school physically. Threw stuff across the library and banged the auto door opener really hard.

Recently, I got canned from my job for cursing out coworker and punching the pole in the fitting room and banging my head into it. I stopped driving for almost a year because of bad road rage. You get the idea.

How am I gonna stop the distruction? I'm only capable of NOT doing these things when I'm calm, but how could I control it when I'm pissed?