Hi, I haven't been on here in a long time. I have been really going through a hard time. I guess I am at the point where I am even tired of hearing myself talk. My eyes have become open to how self absorbed I am. I am just so tired. My doctor diagnosed me with depression, and prescribed medicine on two different occasions. I didn't fill it either time. I just have a real problem with taking medications. My mom is on a huge amount of it and I see how unhealthy she is. The reason I am writing is because these last few weeks, it has become to much to handle. I feel like I am walking around with a 100 pound weight on my chest. I feel like I am walking as slow as a turtle, the other day I took my 2 year old for a walk, and I literally had to fight against just laying down on the sidewalk and not getting up. My husband has no idea how to deal with me. He just says "cheer up, life is good, it will be ok" If you have depression, then you can understand how this advice is about as crazy as I am. If anyone has any advice besides taking prescription drugs, please tell me. I am barely hanging on here.
I suffur from the same sh*t. I have a really good life and theres only a coule things to get deppressed about, and thats what bothers me most about it, because thers just no reason, so what the hell. theres not really much you can do about how you feel inside. I try to keep myself busy, surround myself with loved ones, that really helps. And just try not to be alone, thats when it really hits me. But you can push through it just like anyone can. I alway's look at it like this. People around the world would probably kill for the lives we have, so why waste it. So many people have it much worse and they pull through, its all in your state of mind
You know what? I'm tired of everyone saying "Just be happy!"
What's wrong with being depressed? or melancholy? I know more about myself than most of the nitwits I op-exist with because I've allowed myself to look deep and see what's dark about me.
Now, I'm happier than ever because I know I'm the Yin and the Yang. I'm well rounded, and healthy.
So just go with it, and sooner or later you'll wake up one day and realize how much better life is now that you've gone through hard times.
After all, if you feel such sorrow and pain, then you must have know true happiness once.
