I'm almost 20. Never been in a relationship. Never wanted be in one anyway. But Lately my fascination for women just hit me when I met up wit my best childhood friend who I hadnt seen for a long time, 6 years. When it was time to say goodbye I kissed her, knowing it will be the last time I see her. She didn't mind it.
It was a month later I realized how weak i really was inside and out and Started wishing I was a man. A big strong nonemotional man. I crave strength,power, dominance and everything that my own father wasn't around enough to provide for me.
Male role models on tv,in real life, anywhere I see them I try to mimic them... I don't want to be a weak emotional wallflower ..
It's hard to not have a male model growing up, it affects the girls and guys. It has a different impact on both genders but it happens. This can be your way of acting out for not having a male role model. This can be many things or maybe you really want to be a man, but this isn't something done quickly you have to think about this because this is life changing ! Over where I live before a procedure like this is done (changing genders) you have to have a psychological evaluation to make sure your mor doing this for the wrong reasons. I'm not implying anything but you should have one done just to be sure. Take care & I wish you luck!
Judy, the world (thank heaven) is not divided into two kinds of people - strong, powerful, dominant, unemotional men vs. weak, emotional, passive women.
You don't need to be a man to like women. You don't need to be a man to be strong. You don't need to be a man to be in charge of your emotions. In fact, being a man doesn't guarantee any of those things.
Take your time, go slow, explore who you feel you are, who you want to be, who you want to love. Choose your role models conscientiously. You can discover/create your own way of being human, one that honors everything in you.