I had a dream the other day that my dog died, and then the next day she did. Do you think that's weird? And has something like this ever happened to you? Also, now I'm just kind of numb. I was upset at first, but now I'm nothing but numb. Btw, she was just a puppy. But old enough that it was weird for her to die. Anyway, there have been so many deaths in my family and friends lately that I'm beginning to feel really down about life. I keep feeling that if I'd done something different I'd still be there to protect them. And now I feel like it should have been me instead of any of them.
I think you are in mourning , and it's hard to stop when there are many deaths in your life to be diagnosed as depressed you'd need to see a professional. I'd suggest talking to someone, don't be alone be with trusted friends and family, if it is really affecting you, you should even talk a counselor or a psychologist. Death can be very traumatic, but it doesn't mean you have to go through it alone.
Thanks. I'm just worried to say how I feel to anyone because they always think I'm just being dramatic about it. However I will figure something out.