About two weekends ago I went to Colorado to see my cousin (male) and I hung out with his sister alot cause, I felt I had more incommon with her. And, I just feel my relaxed when I'm hanging out with her. But my cousins are very religious (Mormon)!! And, I was so close to telling my cousin that I like women. I don't mean that I like her!! I just felt like we're close enough I could tell her things like that. But, the reason why I chickened out was cause, I felt that if I told her, she'd tell her dad and mom. And, I didn't wanna deal with how they'd react. Was it a good thing I didn't tell her. Or should I have told her?
I know the Mormon church considers homosexuality a sin, but you don't, so to me that doesn't seem like a reason to keep it from your relatives. However, if you have other family members who disowned you and consider you disgusting because of it, I can understand your wanting to avoid a repeat of that awful experience.
On the other hand, you may be selling them short. Since you are "very close" to your cousin, don't you think her love and affection for you might be strong enough to withstand her religious concerns? The main reason homosexuality has become so much more widely acceptable than it was just a few decades ago is because so many gay and lesbian people began to come out to their friends and families and co-workers and neighbors. Most of the people they came out to learned that being gay was not the distant and weird deviance they had thought, but was rather a perfectly normal person who they cared about. That doesn't mean you "should" come out when you think it's risky, but it's another factor you might want to consider.
The most important thing, really, is that you know deep in your bones that you (and your Mormon relatives, too) are as far as can be from disgusting. Homophobia and other forms of bigotry are what's disgusting.
You really don't understand the Mormon faith!! hard core Mormons are against/discussed by the LGBT community!! They basically think it's a sin to be involved in the LGBT community. And yes, I do know they are my family and all. but, I have had some of my family basically disown me for coming out to them. And, I am very close to my cousin and I just don't want her to become discussed and sickened by it and tell her parents and have them have the same reaction that everyone who is discussed and sickened by it did.
You should only tell people when you feel comfortable doing so. Unfortunately, while you may feel comfortable with her knowing, you seem to not be comfortable with everyone else knowing. You know there is a chance she will tell your other family members, so unless you are ready for them to know I think keeping it to yourself for now is the right thing to do. You should wait until the right time (when you are ready for your whole family to know).
Don't be ashamed of your sexuality. It's not against the law or anything. Just some people don't get that some people feel that way. Like gaia3 said, tell someone you're comfortable with. If they don't like what you say or they tell someone else then that's showing that you shouldn't listen to their doubts and just listen to how you feel. Way to go on stepping up and at least tell us! But it's your decision. Do what feels right.
my family I live with like my parents and my sisters know and have known for MANY years if that's what you mean. But, I just don't wan my uncle and aunt to know cause of their religion and faith.
Then it is really up to you. You know your cousin, if you tell her about your concerns maybe she won't tell your aunt and uncle. It really depends on what you think she would do.
Why is your aunt and uncle's Mormon faith a reason to conceal your identity from them?
No need to tell....always ask your self, what GOOD can come from it if I tell.......