im going to explode,this is not depression or me over reacting..and I know you cant give me proper help but the smallest things are making me go noodle,im having some intense thought's,I have a big RAGE in my head my uncle has mental health.. and the doctors and social wworker and youth offen. are drumming into my head to go counselling when I no I dont need it..and I went the other day and it was a freekshow on display so dont tell me to go counselling,im having these ambitions to jump people at night im really annoyed and fear im gonna start mixing with the wrong crowd I have bipolar disorder but this breakdown is way more extreme when I get really annoyed I get headaches ands its not a good thing tonight I have been building rage becuase my so called wh*re of a best friend removed me off everything.. even though I deleted her anyway but still! and because my old crush's friend told me maybe he dont want to know you..its all small things like this that are twisting me.. I gave head for the first time the other day I cried because I was forced and it reminded me of the past and stuff I cant tell anyone what am I going to do :/. I have this obsession as all my friends have their little nieces and nephews I have a niece to but im not aloud to take her out,so im tryna use my litttle cousin who lives down the road I want him because he is cute! but I cant! because my mum does not think the [ oww my heart is burning :/] mother [ my cousin ] is suitable but I can have the kid :D
Uhm yes, you have bipolar and are about to have a breakdown, and instead of getting help from people who are trained to deal with these problems, you are asking for help from complete strangers who on the whole have little or no understanding of what bipolar is? (do a search, most of the people on here are completely clueless about it...). If you're willing to get help, why arent you willing to get it from people who know what they're talking about? You need to get on medication and you need counseling. When a person fears a melt down, that's generally what they need. And people go to counseling for all sorts of reasons. Counselors go to counseling for personal growth... This whole side freak show thing is in your head... Go get help before you do something you regret...
you seem to be going through a hard time.. obviously there's a lot of things going on right now but you really need to calm down. if you don't want to go to counceling, the least you can do is prove that you don't have to go.
I suggest you stop focusing on the bad though. you're thinking of all these things and it's just making everything worse. this thing about your nephew I completely do not understand though... also, tv has some really good points... you should probably listen deeply to what this person has to say
