At my grandads funeral I cried like a baby. I really hate crying infront of people. As I've got older, not one of my family or friends has seen me cry. I hate it. I only cry (and I'm doing it abit too much) in my own company. I say I'm okay and act fine when I'm really not. But I feel like people would call me an attention seeker if I told them I was upset and down. How do I get over this? I mean, I'm still so so sad over my loss. I just hate talking about it. Is this normal? How do I stop feeling so mean over peple not seeing me cry? I want to talk about my feelings, help get over them abit better, but I can't. Please help me.
Hey, everybody grieves in their own way. There is no right or wrong way. But in the end, the end effect is that you pour it all out, and then try to pick yourself up and move on. You can cry it all out in your bedroom, and you can talk about and share memories of your grandad with your family the next day.
Also, some people take weeks, months and even years to grieve. So take your time. Some family members also need the support of other members when grieving, so your talking and sharing stories will help those around you too. And your friends aren't retards, they will understand your loss, and real friends will always lend you a shoulder or listen to you, to help you overcome your grief. You're ok, it's normal, and my condolences to you.