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Help me stop throwing up

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I'm bulemic, and it's gotten to the point where I don't even have to stick my finger down my throat,. My body just naturally throws up when I eat a certain amount. I like it, because I feel less guilty, because it seems as though it's happening naturally. I eat, and then I see friends, people on tv with nice bodies, and then I think of my boyfriend, and how he used to like this girl who was really pretty adn thin, over me, and then when he started liking me, I was already bulemic, and now I can't stop, becuase I don't want to get fat, and I feel fat all the time. My best friend is really fit and in shape, and she is obssesed with apperearance, and I want to stop throwing up but its like a cycle that wont' stop. How do I stop?