Help? Controlling boyfriend confusion

I’m not sure about this question. I’ve asked for outside opinions on my relationship with A, and people have concluded that he is controlling. I’m not sure myself (maybe because I’m used to it?) so I just want another opinion! He doesn’t do the typical ‘don’t see your friends’ or ‘don’t wear skirts’ thing, because we’re in a LDR and there is no way he can stop mee seeing friends. I don’t wear skirts because I am unhappy with my body. This was mainly down to him: when I met him, I was fairly confident and happy with myself, and he went through a 3-month spell of calling me fat, telling me to lose weight etc. He always said he was joking, and that I should stop taking it personally.I told him to quit it and he did, eventually. Because of my non-existant self-esteem I found really hard to become close to him, eg. affection in public. Whenever I do take his hand, he acts awkwardly until he snatches it away. He always makes little niggling comments to me, like ‘one of your boobs is bigger’ and other stuff that he knows I am conscious of. I tell him to shut up, but he doesn’t always. He is addicted to playing poker, and seeing as I only see him once a week I feel that it should be ‘our’ time, but he always ruins it by logging on and playing for ages. We have stopped getting out, and we only tend to go to Pizza Hut if we do. Whenever I try to tackle him about this, I end up welling up beacuse I hate it so much, to which he replies ‘women are too hormonal’, or ‘the pill makes you cry too much’. Am I going mad?!? The thing is, I can’t leave out the good times we have, but truth be told I can’t think of any. I still look forward to seeing him every weekend, but then it doesn’t live up to my expectations. I don’t know what to do.