A little back story might be necessary but to start with I'm trans - this probably does have something to do with my initial question but it might not. Anyway it started about the time I finally got into sorted everything out for that, lets call it a condition. I've always been shy, felt different from everyone else and just out of place everywhere I was. Safe haven was hiding away in my bedroom.
Things started escalating after a while and I would get really depressed and sometimes so angry I'd hit things etc. becoming so frustrated with myself etc. I was scared to tell people how I felt as I was scared people would not understand be scared of me.
I've left ("graduated") school since the beginning of all of this, and it has mellowed but I do have on and off days. I broke off a not even 3 month relationship as I couldn't stand not being alone and just to myself. I've never been very social but that doesnt bother me, i like my own company. in the last 1/2 years I've been in the shadow of my younger brothers social life, sometimes it would suprise people for them to find we were related let alone brothers.
I was just wondering is there any self training tips and hints for mellowing yourself out, calming yourself down etc. cus all I have at the moment is 1 friend who knows what to say and do. Thanks!
how about exercising i think you could take your angry out on that like you need to find something to do that takes your mind off everything and allows you to take your angry out on that... or just talk to your friend your lucky to have someone that you can you know, talk to and express your feelings and what your going threw but ya ik how you feel your not the only one im not all that social either im extremly shy like superrrr shy ha and now that im not in high school i kinda stop talking to all my friends n my brother has alot of friends hes not shy it sucks but your not different from everyone else there lots of people going threw what your going threw and just be who you are who cares what other people think like your true friends n faimly will except you for you and if people judge you thats on them there not worth it just be who you are and do what makes you happy
I'd write it out of me, as I like to say. Once it's on paper it's out of mind and body. It's better to remain seated when you're angry. Less likely to hit/smash things.
