I have depression, I see a therapist, and I take medication for it. I've actually even gone to school for psychology, So I should know how to help myself better, but I guess when the situation is your own, its entirely different.
I dont know what to do anymore. everyday I feel worse and worse and I cry more and more. Every aspect of my life is falling apart and no matter how hard I try I cant seem to get it together. I went to my therapist today, but often times I leave feeling worse then when I went.
I just wrote to an online suicide prevention site through samaritins, because I honestly feel everyday that the pain is getting greater then I can take and while Id like to say that Im strong enough to not make a choice like that, I have to say that I've never felt so terrible in my life. I've never felt like I want to escape it all and run away so much...I've never felt so disconnected. I dont want to go to a psych hospital. Im not crazy Im just terribably sad, but Im afraid that if I tell my doctor that I even think of suicide or if I call a hotline ill be sent away to some inpatient clinic...
I just want to talk to someone, to try and make sense of it all.
What can I do?
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You are at an age where hormones, emotions and even your brain are undergoing strong changes. It is natural to occasionally feel confused or depressed.
The best thing you can do is to talk to a counselor or therapist. Barring that, find someone you can communicate your emotions and thoughts with, sort of like a sounding board. Keeping your thoughts to yourself doesn't help. If you can't find someone around you then consider Fun Mailing someone on Fun Advice whose advice you like. It's relatively private and gives you a good sounding board.
Check out the link below for information on teen depression.
Information on teen depression:
If you are having problems or are depressed, below are a couple of sites that may help you:
Check out the Befrienders link below. They are not only a suicide hotline but also offer help to people who are stressed or are in a state of depression.
In the U.S.A., you also have access to:
Boys Town National Hotline
Call With Any Problem, Any Time
Fun Mail a "sounding board"!
I would assume that you can't talk about what you are going through with anyone because it is too personal and you don't want others to know about it in relation to you.
The solution, then, might be to pick someone on Fun Advice whose advice you like and Fun Mail them. (You can check out the quality of someone's advice by clicking on their name; going down to their recent advice, click on view all, then click on the questions that might interest you and view their answers.) Explain to them that you are having problems and want to have someone to use as a "sounding board" and would like to know if they would be willing to be your sounding board. Fun Mail is basically private, so you shouldn't have any concerns about your privacy.
Although there are many users on Fun Advice who would be qualified, I'd suggest the person be an Advisor, for two reasons: First, most Advisors have several hundred or even thousands of Answers under their belt which can really give you a perspective about them; and second, you can simply click on the Advisors link at the top of the page and view a list of the most recently active Advisors with information about them AND a total of their Answers. (Don't contact them by that "Ask me a question" link. That's public. Instead, click on their name which will take you to their Profile page, then click on the "Send me Fun Mail" link on the left side of the page.)
You also have the ability to Fun Mail anyone (Advisor or otherwise) by clicking on the "Send me Fun Mail" link near the top of the Answer under the person's name.
euro2nd in theory that's nice, but confidentiality is only to the point where you're not a threat to yourself or anyone else,
so yes you can be sent to an inpatient program if it gets bad enough. I know it's scary, but maybe it will help...
if it really isnt an option, consider medication, or if your therapist isnt helping, talk to him/her and maybe consider alternative types of therapy or maybe another therapist...
Saying you think about suicide isnt going to get you locked up... this really does depend on your therapist and your relationship with them, but unless you have a plan and are really suicidal, they usually wont lock you up for thinking about it... I'd talk to your therapist, and ask them what they'd do if a patient mentioned they were thinking about suicide...
if your under treatment for the depression and its getting worse then it may be that your condition is not being managed properly. changing your meds under a doctors advice of course , sounds like a good place to start. signed in as anonymous its impossible to know if you are male or female but understand that some meds for instance lexapro seems to work better for women than men. having suffered w/ depression w panic disorder, I understand the frustration, but not knowing all the history like how long on meds... job or living situations...the best thing I can say woulb be to check on changing meds or dosage... but ALWAYS under doctors orders good luck ...
well first off..you might want to explain the reason behind your depression...
second...even though you might think suicide might help...it doesn't...its more like an excuse to get away from what you should handle...many times you might think you have no control...but all you need is just a way to find the ways to gain back the control
third...your therapist should have doctor patient confidentiality...and if you call any hotline...they don't know you...or where you live or anything other then you are calling to talk...so you can't get sent to a psych ward...
I know how you feel !
&; of course your NOT crazy!
Everyone needs someone to talk to at times!
But, if you DO suicide (which you shouldn't)
YOUR family&friends will be feeling depression AND guilt!
I hellah want a therapist chus, sometimes I want someone to talk to.
My parents never understands me, and the only person I CAN talk to
is my sister. She recently moved though, so I'm kinda alone right now. =/
But, yeah ! If you need someone to talk to , you've got a friend right here ! =)
firstname.lastname@example.org . .. I used to have it I know what ya feel like, im 16 add me. but dont try and kill yourself please, I have tried so many times xx