I'm an aspiring illustrator and there are a lot of different tools I want to buy, like derwent/ prismacolor/ sakura etc. My mum gave me £15 to spend on the cheaper materials. I went to the shop and found myself analyzing every art item. I looked at the price, compared the quality to others, which ones are worth the price etc etc. When I finally found something I liked (a derwent watercolour pen -£5) I started talking myself out of buying it and kept saying that it wasn't worth the price. I did that with many items, even a notebook that cost £1. When I tried to force myself to buy something that I knew I really needed in my work I was close to crying. In the end I didn't buy anything. It's not the first time this happened. Every time my parents buy me a present or when they buy me something at the shop I feel extreme guilt and try to talk the out of it. We are a poor and indebted family so I'm used to always calculating every penny spent on my things and am always guilty about costing my parents too much. I always scold myself. Is that normal? Anyone else in a similar situation?
no its not bad that your that way like maybe just save your money thats usually what i do when i have money and my dad ends up borrowing it cause he needs money.. which i dont mind hey maybe get a piggy bank (: and you shouldnt feel bad about it like yes they dont have the most money but dont beat yourself up about it like its none of your business i remember when i was younger it was just me my brother and my dad and he struggled with money it was hard n i would worry cause he would tell me then one day hes just like you know what your a kid you shouldent be worrying about this so he stopped telling me... like you cant let it bug you and when they give you money im sure its when they have money to spear so maybe just buy a couple stuff you need then save your money
"... I'm used to always calculating every penny spent on my things and am always guilty about costing my parents too much. I always scold myself. Is that normal? Anyone else in a similar situation? "
I have been in the same situation myself.
It is probably "unusual" rather than "normal" (in today's "buy now, pay later" mentality), but I think your frugal nature will benefit you, and your family, in the long run.
Certainly it has done me no harm to avoid over-spending on what are often unnecessary whims.