Why doesn't anyone make me feel the same?

sometimes things are too good to be true, I know when im in love I just focus on that and nothing else, and then my whole world falls apart. If my current boyfriend split up with me I would be heart broken and end up like I was. I loved my ex, and I don ‘t love him now, but I loved what we used to have, if that makes sense… I don’t regret it, but I managed to move on and I hope you do too x

I really feel for you, I know how it feels, my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years broke up with me nearly 2 years ago.

At first I had endless, sleepless nights, I lost 2 stone in weight, everything I did made me feel sick. For me I quit everything, I quit my job, I locked myself away in my room and for months I was madly depressed.

My parents tried to help, but I threw it back in their faces… I turned into a right b*tch and eneded up losing loads of friends because of my behaviour. But the thing was he hut me so much I wanted to die and didn’t care about anyone else, I found out he cheated on me and slept with prostitutes, I felt sick. He broke up with me because he just felt he couldn’t commit. I had teddy’s in my room which he bought me over those 2 1/2 years, he was the most special person in my life, and my heart had be ripped out. It happened so suddenly I jut couldn’t take it or adjust to it.

After 3 months I just hated myself, I was in a mess, I looked terrible, I was so thin. An old friend who moved away had come home to see his parents, the same thing had happened to him with his ex. He helped me through everything, he told me about listening to my family, because they did want to help me. After a few weeks with his help I managed to get back on track with my parents and they were just great.

My mum came to all my doctors appointments with me… I was put on anti depresants for a few months, and they did help me. I started doing walking, I live in the country, so me and my mum would go out for walks, she helped me through everything, I was kept busy, and within a few months got off tablets, I began eating properly and my regained weight, and became healthy.

I started working again and met some great people. I met this one guy who seemed so down to earth and we became great friends. After another 6 months I was totally happy again, and me and this guy from work began dating… at first it was weird, and it felt wrong… but I ignored it, after 2 months things were great and it all went from there… I’m still with him and we have been together for a year and a half now, and I couldn’t be more happy.

The thing is, I do worry, worry if he cheats on me or if he suddenly dumps me… but that’s love, it’s a risk… if you love you will often get hurt… and sometimes we love many people before we meet the right person.

You WILL get better, you are many steps ahead of what I was, just continue what you’re doing, it may be too early to meet new guys… but with the help and support of your family you are well on your way to recovery.

I hope you feel better soon, and keep telling yourself he was not worth it, you were too good for him… it just takes time.