What - The eye docter has no clue how to fix my eyes?

‘kay so when I was 2 I walked up to my mom and she noticed I had a lazy eye. I went to the eye docter when I was like 5 and he gave me glasses. I HATED wearing glasses so I stopped. Then my parents made me wear a patch over my good eye. It helped a little but I hated it and refused to continue wearing it. So in grade 6 I started wearing my hair over my good eye so I could keep the lazy eye straight. It worked. :D But then I realized that the once good eye had now curved inward and yeah it’s screwed. So I can now switch between having my lazy eye and a straight eye or having a straight eye with one curved in. It’s messed. But I can’t see clearly at all in my curved one and the eye docter gave me contacts for the other good eye but it just made everything blurry and she said I would have them for life… what can I do cause I don’t want to go blind..