What should I do with my so called life?

I have been with my boyfriend for way over 2 years now, and it’s crap. We always fight everyday! I’m not aloud to go out or talk or be around boys, He talks to me like crap, there’s an issue with everything I do or say or touch! He hates taking pictures with me unless he’s drunk or in a very good mood which is rare. He ALWAYS accuses me of cheating! When obviously I haven’t! I’m not aloud to talk to people he hates. He hates it when people treat me like crap though he does himself. He hates it when I’m on the computer for long. Or doing something for a long period of time without him, he gets jealous all the time over everything. He doesn’t take me out anywhere nice like to the movies, dinner etc. unless I beg him too. He does buy me lots of stuff, which I think he buys from guilt or thinks thats all he has to do to make me smile which I do when he does when really I’m depressed all the time, but hide it with a fake laugh or smile or even a conversation because I can’t tell him because it turns to my fault or an arguement, he doesn’t trust me at all, he goes through my bag and purse and reads my reciepts, always asking what I’ve spent my money on and why. Doesn’t like me going out with my family. Or wearing things that are too revealing for me to wear, He hates public transport, such as trains, buses, taxi’s. He’s never been on a plane or only goes by car everywhere, which he has but cant drive as he has his L’s. He does claim to go for his P’s for me, but I still think it won’t be any different, he has been like this for god knows how long, I love him thats why I am still with him and till this day I am still patiently waiting for him to change. I can’t live without him, he is the reason I am still alive through this. But I need space and care sometimes. I hate my life because of not just him, but family too. My mum abandoned me for her boyfriend and now lives 10 hours away, my dad is 67 years old! and has a heart condition and smokes and drinks heavily and doesn’t take any medication whats so ever, he’s lonely and always unhappy, I can’t do anything about it either, trust me I’ve tried! ( terrifyed of him dieing soon) , my sister is selfiish and hard to get through. I have no friends (because of my boyfriend) I do have some, but it’s hard to see them as for my boyfriend (their boys by the way) because I don’t get along so much with girls. I don’t trust anyone! I am always sad and cry sometimes, I am constantly getting put down by everyone I love. The only person I feel like I have left is jason (boyfriend) and he is still making me unhappy. I just want people to be happy with me. I wont see consellors because I dont trust them and I always make the story different with out notice. I don’t feel comfortable with them either. I don’t talk to anyone in my family, they hate me because of my mum. I’m only 16 by the way and I dont live the life I wish I could, shopping, fashion, friends, going out, laughing till you cry, family love. it’s sounds like a dream life. I’m starting not to eat properly or talk as much anymore or even sleep. All I do it waste time and listen to music that relate to me. I’m not even aloud to be pset around my boyfriend no matter what I go through because he get’s frustrated with me, when I “act” sad or depressed, like just now he said to me “You do relise you being like this just made us argue again don’t you?” He means because I’m sad, and very ill at the moment. I know most of you will say DUMP HIM! But honestly I can’t do it. I love him to much to let him go, and we have to many good memries together to let them go. I just wanna know what can I do :( I have tried everything and it just ends up worse than ever. I HATE MY LIFE!! Help me please :’( anyone?