I have lived with this since I can remember and it eats me up most days. I am a musician and a good one to aparently now all I have ever wanted to be in my whole life was to become a star a successfull artist that people look up to and love my music. Now I have been trying to achieve this for the last 4 years and its slowly happening but this is the worst part is that I want the people that have screwed me over in the past to get them selfs a head in the industry I want them to fail and for only me and my band to be the stars and not them. See I dislike this in me as nothing makes me happier than me seeing my friends succed but for some reason in this industry I hate the thought of it I wish it would go away I would do anything for this feeling to go away?
Forget about the others- dont dwell on the past. If you really want this you have to go after it.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"-Eleanor Roosevelt
Take this quote and apply it to your life. Do you really want to become a star? Then get on the computer and start applying for audtitions etc.. practice practice practice!!!
Everyone has a dream, but "All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them"-Walt Disney
Hope this helps. Dont worry I've been in a similar situation too. Forget the rest, its your time now, Get going!!!
Welcome to my world!!!
Karma - what you give out comes back times three, karma will bite them in the asses.
Music is music, it would be great to make a living off it, but its great to be making it regardless. There are so many people would love to have the balls to be putting themselves out there like you are. Enjoy it, regardless of record deals. When your playing - people dont have to think about stuff, its just about the music
Search how to do loving kindness meditation if you want to learn how to be nicer. It involves teaching you to reflect on others' pain and sending wishes of goodwill to them. Change your thoughts, and you change your emotions.