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testing my faith

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less than a year ago my grandmother had died and it practically destroyed me. but I took it as an opportunity to be closer to god. and in the time since then I have been going back to church, praying, reading the bible, and using each opportunity to express gods word. but just recently I have discovered that my dad has cancer and now I don't know what to think. I'm just so angry with god right now. I don't want to pray, I refuse to touch the bible, and I won't wear my purity ring anymore because the only reason I had it was to please god. I mean I still believe in him and everything. and sometimes I just wonder if he's testing my faith to see if I'll hold out. I want to stay true to god but I'm finding it really hard to when I'm so upset. do you have any advice for me? I'm really in a rut and I don't want to hate god, but I'm just too angry to forgive him