Pathetic boy issues.

Okay, before I tell my story and ask my question, I’ll go ahead and say that I sound pathetic for still wanting this boy, but I can’t help it.

I just came out of a very long relationship with a boy that still had a big peice of my heart. I knew me and him would not work again, so moving on after like 4 months seemed like the best thing to do.

I started talking to this boy and hanging out with him, through our mutual friend. He seemed precious, and regardless of what everyone said I fell kinda hard for him.

After talking, we started “dating” and things went from good- to bad.

-he has a 1 year old little girl, that is adorable. His baby- momma so to speak is not the friendliest girl, and I see why she doesn’t like me. I didn’t have many problems from her except her talking about me. -he’s 19 and im 15- going on 16. My mom didn’t like the idea of him having and child and the age differrence, but she looked past it. Knowing I was in desperate need of moving on from my ex, and how much I liked him. -I was with this boy 24/7. He took me home from school everyday, and picked me up in the morning. He pretty much stayed at my house after school until the evening everyday. If he had his baby that day he came over after taking her home. It seemed perfect. We were with each other most weekends, until he started to want to go out and drink with his friends. I didn’t like this, but put up with it anyway. He acted shady for a few weeks, and one night his friends told me, after he ditched his plans with me, he went to a ex’s house. I confronted him of course, and he blew it off, saying he was at his gma’s. The next day I found out he had sex with her. When I asked him about it, he denied. But told me we needed a break.

I found out he had sex with this girl, and told myself I was gonna be done.

He’s been coming over lately, texting constantly, and yes cheating on this girl- with me. I know im stupid, cause he’s having his cake and eating it too. I told him I wasn’t gonna keep it a secret that he was there, and he said baby momma and his now girlfriend (one he cheated on me with) would be mad at me. He asks me to parties, and comes over. Were not messing around, so it’s not like that’s why he’s seeing me. I dont get it, if he wants her, then why’s he coming back to me?