im 22 years old. im 5'8 200 lbs.I have my ged and I work a barely over minimum wage job. I have no boyfriend. I have no car. I dont even know how to drive. I live with my grandparents as I have all my life. I havent seen my mom since I was 7. my dad cant stand me. Im fat & ugly. I spend most my time on the pc after work living in this fantasy world. I cry myself to sleep every night. I just feel so worthless. I have no friends. no money. no one I can talk to, because they just dont seem to want to listen or understand. if I say I want to see a therapist they'd just laugh at me and call me crazy and tell me to go in my room. I have no friends to take me anywhere. Suicide crosses my mind at least twice a day. the only thing that keeps me from slitting my own wrists is the thought of actually being married and having a beautiful little girl that I always wanted. but its like thats never going to happen. really, who wants a fat ugly uneducated cow like me? not to mention I have these big ugly keloids on my ears from when I got a 2nd piercing. I really just want to die!
It's not as bad as it seems, you say you live in this fantasy world? Whats that, games? If so, there must be at least 2 million people in your situation. Just think of a motivation, a goal that you would love to reach.
And strive to get it, by setting goals, you'll never get bored and you never know, you might meet some good people along the way.
I met 100's of people through the internet and MSN, and one is now actually one of my best friends, i meet many people by playing online games. If that is what you're into, most people that play those games are awesome, really nice people.
Look for activities in your area, these are fantastic for meeting new people and getting a hobby or even if you're just looking gor "something to get you out the house" like i was, i joined a cricket club and i go to a college class every thursday and it is always something i look forward to, even when i'm down, it cheers me up to think that i have something to go to, to see friends.
Chin up C0nfused, everything will work out, just stay determined.
I have a couple of ideas for both you guys-
First of all, when I was 30 I went through a bad time. Divorce, family death, savings accts emptied behind my back, adultery, false accusations, poverty, depression etc.
A very old man saw I was troubled and very parentally put his hand on my shoulder and said, "Pal, nothing is ever as bad as it first appears". At that moment I disbelieved. But in time I learned to gain much strength from that man.
Also, Immerse yourself in audio tapes by Wayne Dyer, Deepok Chopra, Earl Nightingale, etc.
Also stop whining and feeling sorry! Get motivated to change! You can become the person you want to be! It's just a question of how bad do you want it?.
go to school , yeah it might be expensive just get a loan if you can I mean theres people out there that spend 80 g's on a car your doing this for the career thats going to get you that job, thats how I thought about it now im in fullsail studying recording arts hopefully ill make it somewhere, hope you make it too
My life sucks too.I'm also fat,stupid and friendless.It's hard for me to give you any meaningful advice,just know that there are lots of people out there that are less than perfect and feel pretty bad about the way they look or act around the opposite sex.Good luck c0nfused,I hope things work out for you.
my life sucks too. im fat n ugly too...but im 14. im alwayshy and stuff...
BUt u know wat i do when i have suckish days??I draw, write or maybe listen to music. This helps me deal with my bad days.
Well, you didn't think it was helpful so i don't have to act all nice, lighten up, nobody is gonna befriend you when you emo your life up.
i just didnt find it helpful.
im antisocial and i dont like the way i look. i dont want to go out and be around people. im embarrassed.