My boyfriend went snowmobiling for the weekend with some buddies. Friday night is always date night for us and I hate staying home. So earlier in the week I decided to get a massage. I frequent the spa often and I made the appointment with my usual therapist Ian. When I arrived last night they informed me that Ian called off but another therapist Brooklyn was filling in. When she came out and introduced herself I could help but notice how beautiful she was.She took me back to the room and she asked me some questions since she never massaged me before. Then she left soI could undress. She came back and began the massage right away I noticed how soft her hands were touching my back. She had amazing pressure for a women. After 5 minutes I began getting wet and started to moan. I was so embarrassed but I couldn't stop. I got even more aroused when I turned over and she massaged my breast. and I couldn't stop looking at her breast as they were about to come out of her shirt as she leaned over me. By the end massage I was about to burst as soon as she left the room I played with my self and I had the best orgasm of my life. I enjoyed it so much I decided to schedule another massage with Brooklyn for next Saturday After I got home and went to bed I couldn't stop thinking about her soft skin hourglass shape and beautiful breast all attributes I wish I had myself. I started getting went again so I took off my clothes garbed the lotion and began massage my breast and pussy until I had another organism.
I woke up this morning and I am still thinking about her. To be honest with you I really don't enjoy sex. I just do it for my boyfriend. I was a virgin up until I met him last year so I went 20 years without sex. Most of the time I have to fake an orgasm anyway. I'm so confused am a lesbian or not is there a way to find out?
Thanks so much Kelly
Gore Vidal felt that heterosexual and homosexual more describe behavior than individuals. He felt that everyone has some potential to go either way and our life experiences determine how our potential is realized. As I see it the more important question is what gender you are drawn to pair bond with? I consider myself a heterosexual man but there have been times that I have been attracted to and could imagine myself having sex with other men. The thing I can't imagine is forming a stable intimate relationship with another man. It is women I am drawn to for this. Your indifference to sex with your BF and attraction to Brooklyn leads me to believe that you are lesbian at least to some extend but I do wonder which gender you are emotionally drawn to. I'd also point out that a lot of 21 year old men are not very experienced or knowledgeable about sex so your sexual indifference might be more him than the entire male gender. Also, it seems somewhat odd that your masseuse would massage your breasts. I'm not sure where this is headed but it seems to me that Brooklyn noted your arousal and ran with it. Naturally sexual contact between your masseuse and yourself would be illegal and wrong but should it happen I would hope you would tip appropriately.
I think you are definitely into women, but maybe not excusively? You could also be interested in men... I think you need to explore your sexuality by dating another woman and seeing how that goes....