Fooling around...not sure how to take this

Ok my friend Terry (26) and I (23) are always very flirtatious, but really good friends too. And yes I do have a crush on him. We have been friends for a few years. I always catch him staring at me and when he realizes I catch him he just smiles because he loves it when I catch him. Like when I sit in a skirt he shakes his head and just says stuff like “Err that’s not fair.” like when we are at karaoke or watching a movie. He is always wanting to get caught doing something. and that is one thing that is exhilarating to me. Well with all our flirting we have gotten a little touchy lately. The other night we were watching a movie with some friends and we were cuddled up (like usual) with him laying across me on the couch. Our other friends fell asleep, I was massaging little parts his back and head, and he started slowly tickling my legs that he had been resting on. well… it got a little further with him rubbing inside my legs tickling me and he… starting rubbing my clit. it was feeling really good until he tried fingering me. It just did not feel right and I told him not to do that. And he understood and stopped. I don’t want to hear that he was taking advantage of me because I could have stopped him sooner, and if he was he could have kept going. Now…I am a virgin and he does now that. We are both celibate ( we don’t have sex with anyone, for those of you who don’t know) and respect each other. It is just the way we are. Now is it normal that I don’t like it when he is trying to penetrate me with his finger? It just doesn’t feel good. Makes me queasy. I don’t like that I don’t like it because I want it to feel good. Also do you think this well effect our friendship? Also I have been trying to come up with some icebreakers how I can talk to him about this, Anything anyone can help me with would be great