Eating Disorder Help: I stopped but I feel so disgusted with myself

I can understand what you are going through, because I have been there before, and honestly even though it feels like you are helpless, it does get better in time. Im not going to say that it goes away completely, because it doesn’t. It’s a struggle, and you need to ask people for help. The best thing to do is ask someone you are very close to for help, Get those feelings out and tell them what you are doing, because then they can try and stop you. Don’t be embarrassed about it, it’s like anything else, Depression, anxiety, or anything, it’s something you need help with that is bigger then you , that you cant deal with all on your own. The next thing you need to do is see a therapist. If you have insurance, it wont be expensive, and if you dont have insurance, a lot of times at hospitals or local colleges you can sign up for their research programs and become part of their studies and they will give you treatment for free. See a professional really helps the way that you think, self esteem wise. And in the long run it helps out with why you are doing this to yourself in the first place, so whatever it is, you can realize, and work on and eventually eliminate, so that once that is eliminated hopefully the eating disorder behavior is as well. The next thing is to see a nutritionist. They can tell you healthy foods that will nurish your body but keep you thin so that you dont have to worry about gaining fat. It’s not an overnight process, its going to take time, but it can be done. You already made a huge realization that you need help and that you want to get better, and thats usually the biggest challenge for most people. Now its just finding the right people to do that. Don’t be embarrassed to talk to someone about it. It effects more people then you think, and its not something that makes you bad. Wanting to change it, shows that you are trying to do a good thing and be healthy. If you ever need to ask me anything about my experience please just ask.