cameron

Okay I broke up with my boyfriend and his name was cameron, but so is my best guy frnd. It’s been a long time since me and him broke up, so I started likeing…well falling in love with my best guy frnd and I’ve been with him for forever, through all the brake up and girls. But now he has this girlfriend who found out by some big mouth that I like him. So we were at lunch today and I was starting to walk over to them and he looked at me with a blank expressions strait in the wyes and started sucking faces with his girlfriend. I just couldnt take it so I walked off crying. I was so mad and I had him in PE the next period. Me and some other friends were sitting on the bleachers waiting for my bff to get her locker. I got frustrateed at having to be int he same room as him, and when I saw him walking twords me and my other frnds I got up off the top belacher and started to climb down in the middle I looked up and he was right in front of me smiling like he didnt just realy hurt me at lunch I just stared at him wit tears in my eyes and walked away. when I cmae back he was sittting two rows below us I sat down and I was not balling just like three tears so far. My other best guy frnd jon really doesnt like it when people hurt my feelings, so he started yelling at him and I saw cameron was really hurting. Soi asked him to stop. when we got outside I was nbt crying anymore and I was so mad at him like any other girl would want to kill him be mad at him so much that they would want to ripp him to shreds, but all I wanted to do wa hug him. I cant figre out my emotionss. I still love him but im so mad at him I want to hurt him but I want to love him Help me figire out what is going on…