So this is kinda strange and personal as well. I love the fall and winter, hate the spring and summer. However, for the past 3 years I've felt depressed every fall and winter? Maybe a bit during the other seasons too but not as badly. I cut myself for the first time in around 10 months just last week. I feel the urge to do it more often. It used to make me feel calm but the other day when I did it I think I felt happy? I'm not quite sure what the deal is... I'm not even sure if I am or was depressed at the time. Also, during the fall and I think the winter, I sometimes have to carry around my inhaler, sometimes the air seems kinda thick. I was given the inhaler for a heart problem I had 2 years ago, and have held on to it since. Any advice other then going to a doctor or counselor would be appreciated, thanks.
You lost me as soon as i saw cutting...wtf ...Get some reason lad...this cutting is pathetic and of no use to you or anyone,its just wrong on every level...if you have issues express them in other ways...or talk to people...I guess this cutting is a shout out for help with something or an other,we all get sht and sht happens to us all a lot but cutting dont do nothing good to no one and there are hundreds of good positive ways to be a depressed attention seeker or what ever...The simpliest way to get out your feelings is with poetry....You may not feel you are a poet or can even entertain the thought but with strong feelings and emotion you can be...if your misery is real and you have a basic grasp of the english language then create a poem that tells your iner thoughts instead of this pathetic useless cutting BS...Find another way please.
Maybe write down your feelings when you're feeling them. Do that for about a week or so, then go back and reread them, maybe that will give you some insight. Do the same when you think you wanna cut again. As for the feeling different in different seasons is kinda normal. I love spring and summer, so when fall gets ready to be here it depresses me and then when winter gets here its worse. When the season comes that does that to you think about the fun you will have or have had in the past. That's the best i can say, hope it helps
I feel the same. I think its normal feeling depressed round fall and winter. If it gets too bad I would go the doctor just in case x