It's not a phobia. I am talking about past experiences. I have had this fear since I was in high school, 3 years ago now. I haven't gone out since 3 or 4 days now. I go out about 2 in a week, I have gone at least 3 months without going out. I am scared of people now, i have been hurt by my closest friends to complete strangers. I don't know why I guess I am an easy target. I try to make as less of eye contact as possible when I do go out. But I try really hard not to go outside. I live in an area where it's kind of dangerous so I try to walk my dogs or just take them out to the bathroom but I haven't even done that this week or last week.
If I am about to go outside I have to think about it, like "is it safe?" "Is it a smart thing for me to go out, right now?" Even if it's just to walk out my door or to the grocery store or to the mall. Or even school. I am even starting to pray more.
I can't go on like this. I really need to be more secure about it. So how can I get over this? How can I take this out? Please I really need help.
Listen,Lolavie.i have been through this.and i want to help you through my experience.but first i want to tell you is.this is not going to be easy.it will need your strength.your time and you will be afraid too but i want you to use that fear and turn it in courage to fight this.i can understand how it is going hard on you.i have been through this completely and felt like you were talking about me.
But first i will share with you what hapened with me i was going into my teenage like 12 years old.so one day i was coming from home shoping and on my way i met this man that i not know well but used to see him in same area where i lived in that time.it was like fifty foot away from my house.it was night time very late for me.so i was afraid to say hi and he said hey come here help me a lil.i said i gotta go now my family is waiting.he said he needs me to push his car for him with his friend so i put my stuff and went to help then that man punched me in my gut.i fell down and he took my wallet and my phone.and put knife on my neck and wanted me to enter their house.i was afraid and said that i wont and he hit me with that knife on my leg and on my shoulder to make it short my neightbour came and he had gun those two guys ran with their car and he called my big bro and went to hospital.i was so in shock by their threats and beating that lasted for 30 minites.cops got that guy who assaulted me and hurt me and they were punished by law.but after that my life was changed i stayed silent for whole day in just complete shock of this terible experience and i started to be afraid of going out at all.i used to go school with my Mom and bro without them i would'nt go.not even at store near my home or for running or sports at all.i used to pray alot for fear fear.fear of being assaulted again :(.so like 5 months of staying home i had to go out.my mom said that go to store to bring her something and i said mom no.she then said some words and i opened the door and was still scared to step down on street.but then walked foots and went and came back.though it wasnt easy.i didnt trust anyone after that and used to pray alot.but slowly with time i started to trust and talk to people again.things like these might happen.but i hope it doesnt.
Your closest friend hurt you and many other people that you dont want to trust anyone.all people are not same girl.i know how it feels.the second you look at people's eyes and you are afraid of past.that things may happen again or even worse.you must go out.it's time that you are missing.these days wont come back.its precious time.make new friends go out but am not telling you to trust anyone.ofcourse becareful.but not that much that you close your self in house and dont go out at all.it is not good for you its unhealthy and not right.go out today and say to your self that you are not afraid of others it is your life and you are you.none is going to take these things from you.you are stronger than you know.it is just a fear and fear is not real.you are real and you own and rule your life and you do what you want.its time for change.a new start.a new rule of this new start is that you are important.and you are not gonna stay home for fear of past.past is gone and wont come back.write it all past on papers and burn them.do your hobbies watch movies and open the door its your world you belong here.yesterday is history and tommorrow is mystery but today is a gift that is why we call it present.so just let the past we dont laugh on same joke for long then why should we stay afraid from something that hapened already and its over you are here because you were stronger.today is going so live your day its going and dont be nervous from future because you will never know what happens but you can always control your life with positive mind.and best planing.choosing your friends wisely.again i say it there is greatness in each an everyone of us.its up to us wether be it or hide it but it is in us.bad things happen let it be a lesson instead of bad memory its up to you to decide.it is your life.if ever you need to talk you are always welcome to talk to me funmails.i wish you a day with a new start!!
I think you need to talk to someone about what happened to you that made you have such severe anxiety. Maybe you need some therapy... :/