How can I lose weight to be prettier?

I know this has been asked so many times and the response is normally “you dont need 2 lose weight” but I dont care I really need some help

im so sick of never being noticed by guys

my skinnier, prettier friends go from one boyfriend 2 the next without a gap

I want to be like them so much and no one even notices how unhappy I am

I dont even care if I end up with an eating disorder, I want a guy I really like to notice me for once

its so hard liking someone so much, and them never noticing, and never having the CONFIDENCE to say something

thats partly why I want to lose weight, I want to be CONFIDENT

I’ve watched so many boys just pass by when I’ve liked them so much

it drives me insane

my family calls me fat so now I want to do something about it

I’ve always failed and gone back to eating like a pig on my own

I cant ask my friends for help because they wont give it

I want to be skinny so bad because nothing else I do satisfys me and makes me feel better about myself and I KNOW this will

honestly some days I just want to hide in a corner and never go out

and put a paper bag over my head

I just wake up with an empty feeling inside, just like dreading because its anuva day

and go 2 bed with the same EMPTINESS

I cant explain it

anyway

PLEASE HELP ME GET SKINNY