is he tryna take da piss or jst love to see me get hurt?what do I

I dumped my boyfriend 2 weeks ago4a stupid reason&I always do dt when I get angry expectin him always to cum bk,bt he called me and said horrible fings id neva imagine him sayin like how he neva loved me and how im a sket and how I take da piss always dumpin him and dt he doesnt wna get bk..n I realized how pathetic I was and need to open ma eyes..n for the last week I called him everyday cryin on da phone beggin him bk bt he’d b so horrible and act like he don’t care, den when I didnt cal him for 1-2 days he called me sayin he’l giv me another chance bt I was angry with him for da stuff he said and I said no I dont want to..n he was like ok…I said no because every1 told me to because of how much of a prik he is and how I cud do so much betta and I listend to dem when I shudve listened to maself..then I didnt cal him for bout 2-3 days and den called him again sayin I missed him and stil love him and he said the same bk and said that he’d call when he gets home but he neva did.. he’s playing games with me expecting me that I wil stay for him…which I probably will bt I dont want to but I cant help myself! because our whole relationship is arguing about stupid stff…like when we first went out we were both shit to each ova esp him bt I told him I didnt wna go out wiv him nemore bt he said he’d change and he did-a lot … and now I’ve lost him. hes givin me mixed emotions sayin he wants me one min then doesnt the next…..what do you think I shud do, still keep trying or give up? this guy is my first love:(