im really sad it seems l get blamed for everything now its to the point when I just dont want to live tonight I went to go eat with my mom just because I was sad and I just wanted to spend time with her which I never do she got mad at me cause I wouldnt smile she wont let me get counseling im also sad because everyone thinks my friend is pretty and she always gets the attention no one has ever called me pretty around her but almost every guy we see calls her pretty and hot and beautiful and I cant stand my moms friend hes always in my face being rude I try to talk to him and my mom about and they just laugh it just seems like everything in my life is going wrong I want out
you know everyone in here can say "It'll get better" and Life goes on and Don't worry it's ok. but it's not. I get the feeling of not wanting to wake up. life sucks. people are mean and stupid. emotions can be rough. especially when you have verbally abusive people in your life. your mom is just being a mom. she nags and criticizes and berates you. and then tells you she loves you. or, maybe she doesn't. what I think you should find is someone to want you for you.
Anyway, I think the best thing that I can tell you is life is not easy. we have a society that places a lot of opinion and judgement on how pretty a person is. but thats not how society should be. but it is. I was never the best looking guy or the "hot guy" I would always get jealous of my friends dating. but, you know what? life goes on. I found people who are in my life that love me for me. some say (woman) I look good others think im hideous. whatever. I could give a shite less. you know why? because people's opinion of me that I don't know doesn't bother me or affect me in anyway.
maybe you should try getting involved into new things like a club or something that interests you but not so much your friend. but try not to let people get to you so much. I know that it's hard but not everything is your fault. you really didnt do everything your getting blamed for. I hated my life so much I ,moved away from everything and pretty much everyone I know. started over. yay.
I cant help much with the whole friend thing but I understand the whole parents thing I had to live with a father that wouldnt listen and an abusive stepmother for 5 years the best thing to do is get your mom by herself and just tell her to shut up and listen thats what I had to do and then explain how you feel but dont let her talk until you are done and then let her talk and see what she says.
hope this helps :)
just think tomorow will be better plus I say ditch hotty hang out with ugly people it will make you look even prettier joke ok so life sucks thats NEW news ^_- just if youre bored or whatever look into something and make your day better also try smiling it actually trick youre body into a state of happiness and you will literally feel better good luck
