How is it possible to be in love and like to watch lesbians touch?

Nothing is wrong with you. Don’t worry about how you feel when seeing something. It is normal. You are not gay.

Just means you’re curious, everyone at one point in time has that cross their mind.

I would say no. There are several reasons to watch two lesbians touch, and it has nothing to do with sexual preference. YOu may be bi-sexual or bi-curious. You aren’t a lesbian though just for watching lesbians.

From my study (and I specialize in theories of pornographic viewership), this is actually common. 88% of women at one time or another will engage in watching lesbian sex. There are some theories for this, and I hope these help, and maybe you can identify with some.

1. YOU WANT TO CONFIRM YOUR SELF IMAGE: Most women watch lesbian porn because they want to ensure that their vagina and body is sexy. We spend most of our time trying to be sexy, as women, to appease other women (Statistics show that 94% of women say they choose their outfits based on what the other women they work/study/etc are wearing and seeking their approval). What better place to find if your body fits in to this appropriate stereotype than porn, and what better approval than knowing that another woman would find it attractive. Also, lesbian pornography tends to focus less on the whole body and more on close-ups of women touching/licking other women’s ‘pussies’. As a result the chance for close up and comparison I greater.

2. THERE IS LITTLE PORN FOR WOMEN: There is little porn for women out there that actually depicts women having sex. And as studies of shown, the most exciting part of sex for most women (orgasmically and intimately) is foreplay - specifically oral. Typical hetero porn focusses mainly on men drilling women in various orifices and them going crazy. Most women know am man pounding the heck out of you isn’t that romantic, and it isn’t that gratifying. Lesbian porn is about foreplay. You see women being touched (usually gently and passionately) and licked and kissed on their spots. It is easier to feel a connection to the person receiving the pleasure because they are a woman, and you can envision your partner (or a partner) doing this to you better. In other words, it is as close to porn for women as you can get - as it is usually almost all foreplay and the women’s pleasure is highlighted.

3. ONE WOMAN USUALLY IS IN THE CAMERA’S POSITION: in film (tv, cinema, etc) there is always a point of view. The camera, often takes on this point of view from time to time. In hetero porn, it is almost always the point of view of the male. If you don’t have a penis, it is hard to identify with this faceless point of view (you aren’t thrusting and aren’t getting pleasure). Porn is fantasy, and part of it involves you imagining yourself in that situation. If you can’t imagine being the person the camera is aligning you to be, you aren’t going to be part of the fantasy. However, you can identify with a woman (even if she is doing the touching or the licking). And often the roles reverse back and forth (so you can be at one point the one receiving the pleasure. Also because of the close-ups, lesbian porn usually aligns the camera not with the person doing the act (we see usually the face of the woman licking or fingering the other woman) but rather, the person receiving the sex. In this way, you can better buy into the fantasy of being the one receiving it.

Just remember… there are lots of reasons to identify with someone. I know when I was young I watched my fair share of lesbian porn. I also watched porn to see how things were done. Most women either use it for a learning experience (how to be on top etc), as a means of increasing their body image (my vagina isn’t that different than hers, it must be desirable) and as a means of gratification (and for that you need to identify with your pleasure points and someone in the position of receiving the pleasure)