Should I get my ex back or get over him?

I DON’T TELL THIS TO PEOPLE TOO OFTEN SO YEAH…OK WE STARTED DATIN ON MAY 5 2007…I WAS SO EFFIN HAPPY CAUSE I MEAN I AM 15 AND I AM IN LOVE WITH MICHAEL…BUT OK SO WE WERE DATIN TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR AND WE WENT ON THIS FIELD TRIP TO A RANCH PLACE AND WELL WE HUNG OUT IN THE HOTT TUB AND GOT A LIL HANDSY THEN WE HAD CERTAIN BUSES YOU HAD TO BE ON AND I SNUCK ON HIS AND GOT IN TROUBLE BUT IT WAS WORTH IT CAUSE THAT WAS OUR LAST DAY OF SCHOOL…so we talked onthe phone all the time I mean constantly…TILL LIKE 3:00 O’CLOCK IN THE MORNIN AND GOT IN TROUBLE…THEN THERE WAS THIS FAIR AND WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER AND WE MADE OUT ALL THE TIME AND HE WAS ALL ON ME…NEVER NOT ON ME…SO ONE NIGHT ON JULY 21 I WALKED MICHAEL HOME SO WE WERE ONOUR WAY THROUGH THE PARKIN LOT AND HE ALL OF A SUDDEN PUSHES ME INTO A CAR AND STARTS MAKIN OUT AGAIN THEN HE PICKS ME UP AND WE GO TO THE OTHER SIDE AND HE PICKS ME UP AND PUTS ME ONTOP OF A HOOD OF A TRUCK…THEN A VAN CAME SO HE TOOK ME CELL AND PUT IT IN HIS POCKETS AND SAID IN CAN ONLY GET IT BACK IF I TELL HIM WHAT I WILL GIVE HIMSO I SAID EVERYTHING…SO HE CAME OVER TO ME AND PUT HIS HAND ON MY CROTCH AND SAID EVEN THIS AND I SAID YES…SO THEN WE WERE WALKIN TOWARDS THE INTERSECTION AND A LINE OF CARS WERE going BY AND HE SAYS GOD WONT THE CARS EVER STOP I WOULD LIKE TO PLAY WIT MY GIRLFRIEND…LOL SO WE KEPT going AND THEN WE GOT ON HIS STREET AND HE STARTED RUBBIN UP AGAINST ME AND THEN WE MADE OUT AGAIN…THEN HE PICKS ME UP AND WE MADE OUT WALKIN AND THEN I SAID MICHAEL I’LL BREAK YOU HE SAID NO OH BY THE WAY I AM 112 LBS SO I AM NOT FAT LOL…SO AFTER THAT HE PUT ME DOWN AND STARTED PUTTIN HIS HAND UP MY SHORTS AND SINCE I AM A VIRGIN SO HE WAS ASKIN ME IF IT WAS ALRIGHT HE’S A VIRGIN TOO BUT I SAID YES SO…YEAH HE STARTED FINGERIN ME AND THEN WE CAME TO HIS HOUSE!! BUT HIS PARENTS WERE HOME SO THAT WAS OUT …SO YEAH…LIKE OUR PHONE CALLS WERN’T ANY REGULAR I GUESS LIKE HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM LIKE FOR REAL AND HE SAID HE MEANT EVERYTHIN HE SAID AND SAYS TO ME…SO HE ALWAYS SAID THAT STUFF AND THAT’S WHAT’S MAKIN IT SO HARD TO GET OVER HIM

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