Everything is going wrong for me..advice!!!

Its only been the first day of high school and I hate it! My classes are boring the teachers are horrible I have nobody with lunch. except for some people Ii know but I don’t care to see them. I think I’m just afraid to move on. I feel like I have so much stuff behind me, I’m leaving my other friends, I’m trying to run away from problems that can hurt me (emotionally) but I’m trying to tell myself it cant and never will hurt me. But I know it will.. and adventually it will.. again.. I also like my friend.. and I think I might love him, I know you might say I’m to young to love… and I’m telling my self that too! But the things that just pops into my head about him isn’t saying I might not love him but that I do…Like I want him to be my last kiss and I want him to not look at other girls so much.. I know he gets hurt so much and I want it to end.,. and I feel like ill never see him again because he moved, he’s trying to keep so much from everybody because he doesn’t want people to judge him because he had to move into not a great town.. he still tells me stuff but its hard to keep track of. I think I just might be afraid of being around somebody I can like because I’ve always been afraid of him leaving my life and stupid of how it sounds I think I’m just afraid of somebody that will love me or treat me well.. ANND My best friend hates her father because he use to abuse her and her little sister. She wants to run away and take her little sister with her,(( I want to help her as much as I can too.)) And ofcourse more problems..but.. In all I just feel like I have to much stuff to move into high school.. any advice I feel like high school stinks and I just want to go on with studies for photography and just get out already! funny thing is I’m a freshmen only… I just want change.. and I want to finally move on get a job make a career and start to were I think can lead me well!! I want to escape anything thats going to make it worse I love him, and I care bout people more than myself, and ofcourse then I never care when ends with me being hurt!!! any advice??? plzzz