Hi, im 13 year old girl and i think i may be developing anorexia. I REALLY dont want to sound like an attention seeking teenager i actually believe i may have a problem. It only started like 5 weeks ago but i'm still curious.
I'm sorry but i dont know what i weigh because my mum keeps forgetting to buy a scale.
I started eating less and less food about 5 weeks ago. I was ill for about two days and barley ate anything and my stomach looked thinner and i got really happy so decided not to eat alot. Then after about 4 days, i tried to eat alot but when i eat anything apart from fruit i feel sick. I also am happy about this because i dont want to eat. Yesterday i ate around 1000 calories and i went to sleep mentally kicking myself for it and i havent ate anything today because of it. I count the calories on foods and drinks to keep track of what im eating. i eat from 700-2100 a week. Though recently its more like 700-1800. i starve myself sometimes.
I exersize a lot. Not just coz im a dancer. I do like hours of muscel workouts and running and all sorts to loose weight.
I lie about how much i eat or make excuses not to eat like 'i had a big lunch' or 'i feel sick'
i've lost quite a bit of weight and others around me have noticed.
My friends and twin asked me if i had an eating disorder but i pretended i think its a dumb idea because i know im not fat, however i feel like im really fat. Two of my bestfriends in particular are REALLY skinny and eat so much and i feel like i want to look like them. I compare myself to everyone now in terms of skinnyness.
I cant concerntrate for long and i get headaches alot now.
I REALLY don’t want to tell my parents so please dont say to tell them. Two of my bestfriends know but i dont trust any adults enough to tell them.
i cant think of anything else but i'll let you know if i do.
No rude comments please
(sorry for bad spelling typed this really quick)
Anorexia nervosa: immoderate food restriction, low body weight, horrid eating habits, irrational fear of gaining weight and often paired with body dysmorphia.
As someone who has gone through this, nearly hospitalized, I'll tell you it's extremely idiotic and harmful but I understand. No one here can diagnose you properly, but I'd say you're getting there. You need to go to someone for help, go to a school guidance counselor if you cannot go to your parents.
700-2100 calories a week is starving yourself. This is starvation.
Anorexia can and will bring to you a whole world of health problems and eventually, fatality. It's not something to take lightly, and it's definitely not a path to which you want to go down.
It really is rather sad that so many people, young teens, children like yourself are going through this.
The beauty of women come in all shapes and sizes, each unique and that's the beauty of it. It's not being stick thin, it's not slathering truckloads of makeup on your face, it's uniqueness and health. If you are unhealthy, it shows. People who are noticing that you are losing weight are not noticing it in a good light. They are noticing that you have begun to look unhealthy which itself, is unattractive. When you are unhealthy, you look sickly thin, eyes sullen, pale, tired, etc, when you are healthy there is a glow around you.
You want to be pretty right? Anorexia is not pretty appearance-wise. Your hair will start falling out, dry, pale skin, brittle nails, if you continue this way long enough, not to mention all the health hazards of this; infertility, brain damage, cardiovascular problems, major body system shutdowns, bad immune system, death, etc.
So I urge you, talk to someone, get yourself some help. If not your parents talk to a counsellor, even your friends' parents or older siblings. Trust me, I've been there it started for me around your age and at 20, I am still struggling with it.
But wont i seem like im seeking attention because usually anorexic people dont think they're anorexic early on right? I dont want to tell the school either because it would feel like they'd monitor me and what im eating in school and they'd most likley tell my parents right?
Bathory, what an awesome answer!
111WhoKnows, please accept Bathory's excellent advice, even the parts that are not what you were hoping to hear.