Why do I feel so dead?

Honey.. I was the same way in my teens, (excluding the cutting-this is back in the mid 80’s and I would have if it would of been something I had even heard of.. I instead punched walls, banged my head, bit my finger… because I had so much pain inside, that when I hurt myself external I felt a rush of tranquility) I did not go for “help” until after my first child was born-extreme postpartum was as soon as I left the hospital & returned home - it was awful! I really wish I had waited until 7 years ago to get professional assistance. But after trials/med changes I am for once in my life not hating it. . mostly myself. Gosh I cud go on and on.. So I’ll sum it up. It is not your fault you feel this way, your brain chemicals are out of wack.. 1st need to get on depression pills (if you already are they’re not working & after time they can even do the opposite affect.. more depressed SO get those changed) I’ve tried numerous brands.. but the one that is working the best is Effexor XR & Welbutrion (sp.?). 2ndly see a Licensed Psychologist.. I didn’t think it would help, but it really does..

OK I’ll quit now. Just remember people that have not gone through a depression HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA - you just cannot “make yourself” feel better.. or get outta bed.. or walk outside etc..

It sounds like you need professional help

Sometimes these feelings are caused by chemical imbalances in the brain. The fact that you are able to see that your life is not as bad as that of others tells me that you’re not reaping your own sorrow

Please talk to your doctor - sometimes the right medication can get you back up to par

bbycakes, please heed aloofmn’s advice. There is no reason to treat these symptoms any differently than if you were describing any other health problem that another person recognizes as similar to symptoms that they’ve had. You can get help and be a happier person.