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I am suffering from severe depression

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I am suffering from severe depression and have been for quite a while now, and have attempted to end it all a few times. And I just cant cope anymore. The more I stay here and 'live' it out, the more dead I feel inside and the more I hate everything. There are a few people that I have managed to survive for; my sister, my two younger brothers who are 3 and a new born, and my best friend. I cant do it for my parents...they dont understand and I dont know what to do, because they always are so so cold etc to me...like they dont care or love me...and I cant do it for myself because I dont like myself... Basically about 2 weeks ago my mum found out about one of the main catalysts of my depression was, and told my dad, but they dont seem to believe what happened and it hurts more, than just dealing with what happened. And the more I hurt, the more determined I am to hide it all from everyone, yet the more I do that the more I hurt...its catch 22...All they seem to do is sweep it under the carpet and say its in the past, there is nothing that can be done. But to me its NOT in the past its a living nightmare, and I am constantly jumpy and scared to the point of having regular panick attacks even though it happened two years ago. Why cant they see that this is one cause?

So really I want to know how can I help my parents see my pain and how can I get the affection I am so longing for, before its too late?

I am just so confused and lost and dont know what I can do or want to do...