What do you think of my poem "Cries in the Shower"?

I wrote this while I had no internet. Cries in the Shower

Half my life, I was hurt emotionally, physically, or mentally I tried so hard to take it a spit it out later and forget about it fully Worked for a short time and it came back the next day It hurts so much and couldn’t be spoken in words to say But this day was differen’t Tricked into a trap by the person I liked for so long Total humiliation and in front of an entire public school, it was a horrifying song Running home as fast as I possibly could, ripping my clothes off on the way there I didn’t care who saw me or if a person in a car stopped to stare Now home, I immediately threw my body into the shower with a terribly sharp knife in hand Curly up into a ball in the corner of the shower, slitting every part of my ugly body wishing I was just dirty ass sand Sobbing and crying loudly feeling my salty tears mixed with the shower water on my face Not even caring if the mess was washing off my body, running my soggy fingers along my body at a slow pace That pace leaving deep cut wounds that are now bleeding but I made no attempt to stop the bleeding Where I was at in life, I didn’t care if I was alive or dead or even breathing I lay there for nearly a week but in a padded white room with 24 hour watch My life was over because of martal embarrassment