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How can I restore sex in my relationship?

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I need advice and thx in advance to those who answer. Just turned 50, my boyfriend is living with me in my house and we have had sex 2 times in 8 years!!! I went thru cancer at 40 and it took away my sex drive as I went through extremely high doses of chemotherapy. Within the next 2 years, my sex drive came back. During those 2 years, he had sex with a drug addict which he kept secret and I have recently found out about. I had my breast removed and I never had reconstruction so I have gone all these years thinking he couldn't stand to look at me. Before the cancer, we had sex all the time and it was FANTASTIC! We talk about it and nothing has changed; seems he can't stay home long enough for us to work on it and gets frustrated if I talk to him about it. He is gone 7 days a week from 6am to 6pm and has been for years (not work related either) so all he wants to do is eat and sleep; we never spend time together; when he comes home he is too tired or he hurts. It is as though we are only friends. I love him dearly and we have seen each other on and off for 15 years but my life is extremely unfulfilling. I am scared of the thought of meeting someone else because I am scared of rejection. He seems to be conversing with my sister (who is single and we are NOT close) everyday as she always calls him when she needs something or a shoulder to cry on but yet he can never be here for or with me. I am considering getting a toy for now as I have never owned one. I want some type of life before I get too much older. Any suggestions?