i get embarrased
You don't have to tell her, just send it. It's really nothing to be embarrsed about, your just traying to send it to someone you admire, I'm sure she has someone who she admires too. You can just tell her you want to send a letter to someone, if she asks, just say it's for a contest or something?
If you are embarrassed, you don't need to tell anyone. Just write it and send it yourself.
thanks thats a real help :) now ive just got to get a stamp