About 2 months ago I lost one of the closest friends I had eve had, She committed suicide because her home life was bad, She was found hanging in her closet. I have hardly smiled since then and I don't think I will ever get out of my depression.My grandparents tried to get someone to help me but it didnt work. I can remember her beautiful smile and her long brown hair, can anyone help me?
Like the above said... It's good to write all this down on a journal, it's not going to be easy just forgething about this is going to take time because it is a big loss for you sience she was your best friend. I think that you know taking walks, finding a hobbie to do while all these memmories hunt you is a good idea to do. Don't be afraid to cry because sometimes that is how all emmotions get out. If you don't want to cry in front of people then it's ok, go to your room or a favorite place of your and cry it all out. Don't exluce yourself from people, go out with other friends and all, if you do exclude from other people that sometimes causes more and more depression. Find someone to talk to, I know where your grandperents took you or whatver did not work but meaby you can find someone that you can talk to that you trust or that you you are yourself with to talk to and get those feelings out of your chest.
Take it a day at a time. Write in a journal, anything to just vent. When I lost someone important to me, I sought counseling and went to friends for help. I get that you miss your friend, but you have to move on. You will always have your memories and you can piece together things that you love about her. You don't have to forget, you just have to learn to deal with it. She's not coming back, to be blunt. Visit her grave, and tell her that you miss her. And that you will always love her. I know that a friend of mine visits her grandparents graves each year to tell them how much she loves them. Maybe that's what you need, just a break to recapture the precious moments and remember that she chose this path. You can't go back in time to change things. You need to learn how to live with it, only time will tell.
Haha.. nothing new here. writing is the best way to get things out of uur head.