On friday my boyfriends friend killed herself. She was only 15. Although I didnt know her I've been hit very hard by her death and it has got to me very much and has left me heartbroken. She has a few social websites and there has been massive responses and comments on them about her death. My boyfriend is also very upset too. Im always here for him and he knows iam. But I wonder why her death has hit me so hard? I've cried for three nights in a row a bout her. She was beautiful x
Something like this happened to me when I had just gotten out of high school. The girl who died was killed by a drunk driver. She was only 20 years old. I didn't know her all that well, just from seeing her around school, and I had mutual friends and I knew her sister, but there was something about her dying that just really effected me. Every time I drove by the street and saw all the flowers laid out where she had been killed, I cried. And I thought about what she must have been thinking when it was happening constantly..it just really hit me emotionally. I think now it was because you never think of people your own age dying when you are a teen, or young adult..you always just think it will be really sick or elderly people..not healthy vivacious teens or young adults. It kind of makes you realize that nothing is forever or a guarantee. Also, it makes you feel terrible to think of what they must have experienced during those last moments, what were they thinking? And to see the pain of everyone who loved them is heartbreaking. I hope you feel better soon.
I reacted similarly when a close friend of my friend's died. I barely knew her but it devastated me, I think because she was just so young and beautiful. I was in high school at the time and didn't know anyone else who had died (unfortunately, at this point in my life, I've lost many family members and one very close friend).
The only thing that really helps is time. Talk to people about how you feel and just let time heal the wounds. As the days go by, the people around you will start to feel better and you can all move on.
Because their pain is wearing off on you, I know what you mean. Knowing a lot of people are upset, makes you upset. I've definitely been in that position and its completely okay it just means you care. A boy in my town got hit be a truck and died, almost all my friends knew him except me and all of them being upset made me upset about it.
You probably are realizing your own mortality.
