could use some encouragement...

hey guys I just need to talk and let things out. mabe someone can give me some clarity. Just recently I decided to enrole back into highschool to finish up. and well the teahers side with favourites and lets say im not a favourite. they are makeing it very hard for me. I have to finish 7 credits in one semester. so its very stressful. and yet my little cousin is dieing also. t ever since my older brother passed away 3 years ago , my family is always fighting and not talking to eachother. this is stressing me out to a point were I feel helpless. and this is affecting me in my relationship with my girlfreind. I keep thinking shes going to leave me too like everyne else. because like everything at first its good with family and friends exc then they just kick you to the curb. I have no one really to talk to because my bestfreind backstabbed me and my other friends moved away. so im basically alone. it just feels like this is my life kinda thing. feels like its what im stuck with. I cant really talk to my girlfreind because she’s got enough stress already., im doing everything for her and I sure couldnt bare to lose her. then I would be alone. I wish I could make things better or something. I just cant bare to lose yet another person…