He's 15 years older

ok. I was raped in my freshman year of highschool... Anyways... fast foward 4 years later, and it still bothers me every day. but this isnt why im writing this. I have realized that I am oddly VERY attracted to older men. I am only 18 years old, but I wont give a boy under the age of maybe 30 the time of day. I work with the public, and a lot of young men are jerks, and do hit on me. I dont pay a bit of attention to them. I just see them as immature assholes even though I know nothing about them. I just feel like I dont have time for their little boy problems and I really dont like talking to them. Im usually looking at the much older men around 30-40 and I dont understand why. Do you think that this is because of the rape? I cant understand it...

I think that the rape probably dose have an effect on that...but mayb not because a lot of chick are aratied to older men bc of there maturity level...but it not sso rong because just think..when your say 20 the 30year old dude will b like 33 or w/e and most younger girls are dating older guyz anyway