What's this guy all about?

okay, my ex boyfriend broke up with me and asked if we could just be friends because he wasn’t ready for a relationship, fair enough, no problem, I wasn’t entirely sure I was ready for a new relationship either so yeah, it wasn’t really a problem, but this is where it starts getting weird and complicated and confusing.

A friends of ours told me that he’s trying to get back together with his last girlfriend, who doesn’t love him and from what I’ve heard (I don’t know the girl) she’s won’t.

Anyway, I held a party before I was going to travel for a month’s time and of course I invited him, we’re friends and just he couldn’t keep his hands off me, he kept hugging me, pressing his head in between my breasts and cupped them, even licked them in front of everyone because of a few drops of alcohol that had fallen onto them after I opened a can. I know I should have stopped him, but obviously I wasn’t over him as much as I thought I was. I almost kissed him at one point, he had made me sit in his lap, and I was glaring him in the face, it was just too close, I didn’t know if he thought the same as I did, I just knew I couldn’t afford to do something as stupid as that and so I pulled away and got off, finding a chair for myself.

I don’t know what to think, I just know… nothing actually, I don’t know anything and that’s what bothering me beyond compare.

And it gets even worse when I add this to whole thing: He told me before we started actually dating that he was very jealous of my gay friend because he thought we were togther (we were only doing whatever we usually do, play-fight) and back then he was with another girl, I don’t know if it’s the same he’s trying to get back together with, but it most likely is.

I’m just so confused about this whole thing. I just want to move on and for him to be happy, I don’t mind being just his friend, though I’m pretty sure I’d accept him back in my life as my boyfriend if he wanted to, but yeah…

At some point, I think he’s as confused as I am, I talked with him about the whole “breast thing” and he said he was sorry and knew that he really shouldn’t have done that, he felt bad about it for quite a long time actually.

Anyways, what should I make of this? I don’t know and I don’t want to start hoping for stupid things, the only answer I can find in all of this is that he still loves me, but I don’t want it to be like that or well… I guess I would… sigh I’m confused…