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I really suck at this...but the story goes like this. I like this girl who is 2 years older then me (actually 1 and a half) for around 2 years. Skipping to the point where she becomes a senior and I become a junior. We hardly get to see each other except in the hallways now since we don't have anymore classes together. When ever I run in to her during the mourning going to school, I'd start out being shy/nervous and then end up having a fun time talking to her. I told her how I felt one day and she told me she was failing classes... her dog... and that she likes me as a friend, but somehow... I keep getting this feeling she does like me. Ever since I just started acting shy again when ever she is around her friends. Then came the school work... (Junior year is considered to be the most stressful year of HS) I was stressed and I looked tired/angry most of the time. Every time I see her she would wave and smile to me, but I would look like dead/angry (and no one likes to approach a dead/angry person, am I right?) Most of the times I even say Hi, but she couldn't hear me, so basically she took it as if I ignored her and that's when it started going back and forth with the akwardness (But we'd still greet each other sometimes). Towards the middle of the School year I would see her less because like every senior, she developed senioritis... and started socializing and cutting more (and still pass her classes). The akwardness still happens when we do see each other. One day she wrote on her status on facebook "I have mixed feelings". I assumed one of them were to be me because of instincts. But... I think after she listen to her friends advice she'd choose the other guy because I wasn't around her that much during this year. The problem is the same thing happened to her what happened to me, but she stayed positive (she considers him a best friend now). But she would still act awkardly to me when she sees me out in the hallways. There was not a moment where she was stuck in my head. I couldn't sleep or anything( I mean I've been depressed over other girls before, but not as worst as this). My grades were dropping because of me thinking about her to much and the stress of schoolwork on me. So I decided that I "wanted to be positive". I ignored her completely and I started being sort of semi happy again, but then every time I see her I get mood swings. One day I bumped in to her and she said "hi" in a shy voice but I would just walk past her. It was almost the end of the school year, so I thought I should make her something before she leaves. She told me it was cute and that I evaded her. When she actually did graduate, I told my self that this already gave me a lot of distractions during the school year and that I wouldn't let it ruin my Summer. So I didn't think about her much during my summer, but during the second week in to my summer she started IMing me(she goes on aim rarely). I was away during the time but when I got her IM I got a mood swing (I wanted to talk but she just logged off). I waited the next time she went on aim and started talking to her ,but as a friend (I didn't want any awkwardness to happen). I asked her if she wanted to hang out. She said sure and asked when I was free and I told her. Then she told me she was going to be busy for the rest of the week. I figured she was stalling because its been 1 month already and we still didn't hang out. I asked her when were we going to hang out and she started ignoring me so then I told her "sorry for bothering you in the first place" and she replied "Sorry I didn't check my messages" (Which is a lie) . I was also afraid too about hanging with her too because of my dam shyness and mood swings. But I still IM her on aim when ever she goes on but I really don't know how to start a conversation with her anymore because I'm so scared. Being the horoscope believer that I am during one of the days I was feeling depressed it told me "trust your instinct no matter what even if the one you love may not be sincere" Its weird how I can still think of someone who I don't hardly see or think that I will end up seeing again in the future.

Sorry for this long story.
What should I do about her stalling me? Should I confront her one more time or just leave it and play it cool? Based on my experience every time I see her, does she really like me or am I just a fool? Should I just move on with life or stick with my instincts and keep trying? Was I really in denial all this time or she really does like me?What should I do? I know this story is weird seeing how we never really hung out anywhere else besides school. I was also talking to her a lot during my sophmore year. I also tried occupying myself with activities so I wouldn't think about her. I failed!