ive really been having trouble im 18 and my best friend is starting to look good to me... we are both guys... he doesnt know it but he looks hot to me. i just looked at gay porn for the first time and then masterbated... anyone have the same issue or advice plz let me know.
Honestly, I've seen "gay porn" before - however, it did nothing for me. So...my best guess is that you are, in fact, gay. That doesn't mean anything negative, it simply means you prefer guys. Keep in mind that not all society's are accepting of people, despite us all being human. (that sucks but it's a whole nother story).
Perhaps you could talk to a few friends about it, or use sites (like this one) to connect with other people & share your experience. Knowing who you are, and being comfortable with who you are, is key to happiness, imho.
Some people go for years, trying to be people they are not, and you're really fortunate to have made this realization so early - some people take a long time, and always know somethig is missing from they're lives, but never realize it.
Good luck, and I sincerely hope that your friends, family, and such are supportive of you.
Last - who knows - if you're friend is a nice guy, and you have a good relationship, he might be understanding of the issue...and it might even be possible that he's gay too. Though, if you do discuss this with him, and he's not gay, the best bet is to leave your personal feelings for him out of it at first, and simply mention that you think you're gay, etc, as the other may trigger a "defensive mechanism" and he might react badly. It'd be sad to lose your friend, simply because he wasn't attracted to you as well.
Good luck. ~thedude.
it sounds as if you are, but if you are there is nothing wrong with that. When you feel you are comfortable enough with yourself to tell people then i say go for it. however, some people will try bring you down, but just ignore them cause they aren't going to be part of your life forever <3. (: good luck (:
