I think... I think I love my cousin (romanticly)

This isnt my only post I just never get straght answers and mostly I get thats weird or thats toatly gross and incest is nasty. 1st things first its not incest you idiots I did my research secodn of all it not weird in all countries liek try india its consided "NORMAL!". Also I know in some countries First cousins are illagal but I dont f*cking care! so if you have some kinda interest in helping me please read the back ground between her and me.

I have no idea how she feels but the first time I saw her I was blown away how cute she was (I remember her beign a baby even tho theres only a 7 month age diffrence and im the older 1) but I wasnt even a toddler back then so I just starred at her pretty lil cutie face lol. years later I knew what feelings were but not much about love and I notice that I kinda liked my cousin and of cause I found thta ick so I put that thought in the back of my mind but all the tiem I spoke to her I douhnd my self sitting/standing so close I might as well been standing on top of her alway starrign at her eyesall that shit but I didnt know hwat that meant infact I didnt even know how to spell cat or mat back then! (I was 4 years old lol no school) so I kpt it in my head but went on with my life now one to the next major stage in me falling for my cousin. I was 7 I knew about love about feelings my parents taught me it. and tho I had been hot and cold with her. the feelings were still there thwey went everynow and then but every tiem I saw her again they came back. I just couldnt shake them (btw we're very very very close cousins) so I came to realize that I had deep feelings for my cousin so I started flirting and lookign up sites. about it (deleting my history of cause don want my rents to find out.) and I dound nothing I even posted a few how do I tell her posts on y*hoo answers but got no where. then in winter somethign amacing happend I kissed her nothign special but it was more then a cousin kiss lol) she didnt reject it but I did I couldnt handle it it was liek my brain knew it didnt want to do it but my heart told me to it made me do it and there I was hiding from my cousin because I had just kissed her (give me a break I was 7 almost 8 I wasnt much mature so it was the best option) when she foudn me she gave me a piece of her mind that she would do it again but didnt want to risk getting caught I kissed her one more time jsut to keep it but after that nothng was to happen apart from a family kiss on the cheek and a hug (lots of them somtimes my arms hurt when she gives me a hug so long!!!) but there was always soemthoign we did sleep in the same bed. she would move her bed and join 2 to make a double bed so we could sleep next to eachother. recently when I was 12 (no longer 12 btw) her dad finally got a job thank god! menaing I wouldnt be able to see her much because of school so I thought finally maybe I could forget but she seemed to be able to get a hodl of me soemhow ether MSN or something and I never forgot it's stayed and next yeari wont get a break because we will be going to the same school!!! and if I dont tell her it would be obvious not only to her but to the other students!!! and I dont want anyone knowign other then her and she doesnt even know yet so here coems why I need advice.

1 should I tell her or let her find out by the way I act around her?

2 if I do tell her how?

3 if I do tell her is it possible that she'd freak out?