How do i get through is anger and show him i love him?

From your last post relating to this topic I’d have to advise against really seeing him unless he went to therapy of some sort. It sounds like he grew up in less than ideal circumstances and is repeating a cycle of abuse that can and will include you if you manage to regain contact. He won’t change just because you love him. To him YOU’RE the one with the problem. Personally, I’d advise you to move on and find someone new. He’s made it pretty plain that contact with you is a low priority in his world otherwise he wouldn’t be screening your calls and mail. It’s time to let go.

Don’t think of it thats he’s anger is directed towards you, he’s going to die and there’s nothing no one can do so I would presume he’s pretty pissed at life in general and you’re just one of the things he can’t do anything about it would make it worse if he really loves you and that he knows he’ll never be there for you. Move on girl you said what you wanted and leave it there. There’s nothing there for you but a whole lot of heartache. You WILL find someone else and be happy once again. When you do let us all know ;)

Good luck