I can't get over this guy

I can’t get over this guy even though he absoluley I sover me and hes coming up from cali on thursday and I thnk I love him but he doesn’t love me and he doesnt like my friends and his cousin 1 of my friends lives next 2 me and thats where hes staying and she says all he wants is to get in my pants and that I wouldnt be able to say no and im turning 14 tomorow and he’ll be up here 2 days after that and I just really like him but I think im not pretty or skinny enough for him bu I love him and I need to know he loves me or imma b real sad and hes 14 and he has A LOT of girls to be with and hes a slut kinda like a lot of sleeping aroun and stuff but I still want to be one of his girls and im scared that all he wants is to get in my pants…UGH!and he doesnt like me anymore cause I was merna to his cousin but now that we made up we are friends but he doesnt like me and she says he is gonna blow up on me and my friends and I still want him…im sooo atupid but I love him!

HELPPP